Oh god, I know you must be tired of hearing this, but I really don't know what else to say, I'm so sorry for your loss. No parent should ever have to outlive their child. I don't think could handle five minutes in your shoes. It must be taking you a lot of strength to even brush, much less read and respond to articles. I hope you continue to 'keep on keeping on', as they say, and find a way to live with what happened.